Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts

I'm Still Here

11:41 PM
Just wanna share this recent photo of mine that i edited for my profile pic :D. This was taken just a while ago after the prenup video shoot at the boulevard. I overlayed lines from one of my recent favorite song which is an old song that i rediscovered lately. I got them from Goo goo doll's song I'm Still here, from the soundtrack of the animated film, Treasure Planet. I came across this song as I was researching for inspiration for a project. The lines perfectly fit how i feel and the message is beautiful. Hit the like button if u do.. :D


They can't tell me who to be
Cause I'm not what they see
Yeah, the world is still sleepin while I keep on dreaming for me
And their words are just whispers and lies thatI'll never believe
Im the One now coz im still here...

Folding Sheets

1:35 AM


sometimes i wonder if i am enough
to be the person who you deserve
the one you can trust when times are tough
whom you can share your laughter

true, i have done lots of stupid things
and you cant forget the pain you felt
a punch in your heart, a bee sting
instantly froze our reluctant hearts

its like a drop of ink in a white cloth
that stained our once perfect bond
so vivid you cant take your eyes off
as i try to wash this with my hands

but still the stain remains the same
still not enough so i wash it again, and again
and you're standing there watching me change
so we're back to the old times like how we began

i knew it was not enough, like a scar
i cant erase no matter how i tried
and as i watch the old cloth dry under the star
you were spraying ink on the other side

i thought it was enough like you were for me
the perfect one i cant give any doubt
on my back you are folding other sheets
im look okay but inside im freaking out

how long can i take the darts of pain behind
as you're constantly doing the things you said
that i should do, but you thought i was blind
im just here waiting, for you to change your mind

- o -
artwork credits to ~navidoutlaw "blind"

My Fortress

12:39 AM
Here's my latest digital artwork. Just a simple piece inspired by double exposure photography. Hope you like!


There is a yearning in me, I am woman;
Broken by the tears I've shed, for those
Who have a place inside my heart.
Yearning, yearning greater still with age;
A feeling that I missed something along the way,
Whilst living life and meeting needs,
What seeds did I not sow, that should
Bear fruit now I am older?
All I could do at times,
Was keep my head above the waves
That sought to drown me;
To just keep swimming
All against the tide of life
And hope that love had found me.
When I was young, so easy
To relate and give myself.
But scarred by true reality
And scorn for all my trusting .......
In isolation now I dwell,
Protecting innermost, the child within,
Still crying out "It's me, I'm here"
But not so you can hurt me.
And so along the way, I built
A fortress where no one can be
But me.

Click on the digital art to see the credits.
Poem by Lyn
©2011 CSZ97

dot dot dot

11:46 PM


today i remain silent here in this room.
the four corners seems to strangle me as my emotions stir

i remember you again, those days that i share with you
those hours that i cherish being with you, now just a memory
you stared just like a hawk in the sky and i’m your prey
your a predator that caught my heart in a split second…

i remember that day that i never take off my eyes on you
cause you make me feel happy though i’m tired of being me
tired of not knowing myself very well like you do
i’m not sure.. not so sure of who you are and who am i
these is just vague.

are these feelings deep or just infatuation?
because it doesn’t seem right to have you by my side
i guess i just don’t like being with you because of what other people might think
does it matter now? i guess no…

i kept this for a long long time. this feeling is just confusing
i saw your profile and started browsing every content.
good thing were not stable, because i just don’t want to be close to you
even though it’s hard to accept, that i might lose a friend

i can see that you have somebody now and i’m happy for you
You need not to remember me, just be free to be yourself
and ill be here always at your back to catch you when you stumble
whenever your peers starts to leave you…

and again, i’m here in this room. this room filled with emptiness
hoping that someday someone will care to knock the doors
because your just a room apart, and i hope you’ll remember me to.
only you can fill my emptiness…

-o-

This is an original post from my friendster blog.
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Just a mere Enigma...

12:15 AM

Likeanyotherordinaryday,thisone’sabouttoendwith

mybushedbodylyingflatlyonmy bed,staringatthe

glowinglittlethingamajighangingidolentlyinthewhite

ceiling.It’sdarkandallihearisthewhiroftheelectricfan,

andIamstartingtoshutdown.Butmymindisblabbering

relentlesslywithmanythoughtsIdon’tevenwanttothink

about.Ireckonaboutsomethingtodaythatkeepson

botheringme.Manyquestionsinmyheadstartstotorture

me.Idon’tknowwhattodo…iwanttobreakdown!Ikeep

ongnashingmyteeth,untilInoticedit’sthreeo’clockandit

seemsimstartingtosufferinsomia.Why?Why?Why?Why

can’tIjustletgoofmythoughtsandbedumbfortherest

ofmylife!!!Waaaa..andi’m gettingtiredofthinking

aboutnothing..andifallasleepthinkingaboutitagian..

shoot.^^


Is love worth it?

11:56 PM
It’s an enigma when you fall in love and accept that some good things never last.

Suddenly you’ll see yourself as nothing.

It is an agony to accept that despite the feelings you have, it’s all not enough.

But when you love someone, you would do the hardest thing

and yes

it’s not going to be easy but at least you know that wat you felt was REAL..

In the end, you’ll ask yourself "does it hurt?"

then you’ll close your eyes and wispher

"yes, but it may be worth it.." (//_+)


-o-

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Nauseated by my Habits (//_+)

12:01 AM
Pen of my soul

Sharp as a dagger

When wrath invades me

In my hands I control

Lone tortures

Love killeth me

Too hard may break

The fragile lead

Lighter I press

Crows peck my eyes

The emotion is thrown

Myself I had fooled

Suffering from absence

sentiment returnst

body sorched

hands grip tighter

the rush of anger

flowing thy vessels

till ink of aversion surfeit

spilling

overflowing

slick

stumble and trip

the wound in my wrist

how bitter sweet it is

hands break pen

left it rolling in the ground

grubby and shattered

exhausted

tired

by my foolishness

no words can say

no music can play

nothing

but my hands

trembling of guilt

faux reality

blurred by dust

ashes to ashes

how disgusting

can’t really believe

what mess I left

this child crying

inside me

innocent



-o-

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~~Lumayo Ako~~

12:03 AM
(Original post from my FS blog)

Iniwas niya ang mga kotse

nagpapatintero sa kalye

isang hakbang sa harap ng bus

Nagmamadali, wala sa sarili

naliligaw sa kalat-kalat na isip

nadama ang kalabit sa balikat

Excuse me? Siya’y naantig

Ako si kamatayan

I beg your pardon?

Kamatayan

Late na po ako, kailangan kong tumakbo

Wag kang magmadali

Seryoso ka ba? Wag nagyon

Seryoso, oo ngayon.

Marahil nagkakamali lang hu kayo

Hindi

Sigurado ka?

Sigurado

Pag-usapan natin ito

Kape?

Sige, malamang masarap magkape ngayon

Lahat naman gusto ng ganyan

Ng kape?

Na pag-usapan muna ito

Ito na lang ata ang tanging magagawa mo

Gatas at Asukal?

Oo, ngayon, ano ba ang pag-uusapan natin?

Tungkol saan?

Alam mo na, bakit ako, bakit ngayon?

Bakit hindi?

Hindi ko kasi ito inaasahan

Wala namang umasa ng ganito

Malamang, pero ganito,

May identipikasyon ka ba?

Hindi na ito kailangan

Malihim na tao. Wala, kahit papeles?

Wala

Hindi sa pag-uuyam, gusgusin na kasuotan?

Ibig kong sabihin, kahit tiklop lang sa salawal?

May problema ba?

Wala naman, pero. . .

Kakaiba?

Oo, este, hindi ko inaasahan

Ang ano?

Ang appointment. hindi ba masyado..

Alam mo naman pala..

Umm, siyempre kung iisipin

Kaya andito ako

Oo alam ko, pero parang panaginip

Ibig kong sabihin, dito at ngayon? Wala man lang tawag?

Tawag?

Walang katok sa pintuan, bat hindi ka kumatok?

Hindi ako kumakatok

Konting paghahanda sana

Buong buhay ang paghahanda

Jan ka na naman, masyadong matalinghaga

May mga bagay na kailangan kong tapusin muna

Di na kailangan

Madali lang sabihin, may mga obligasyon ako

Walang obligasyon

Kahit isang liham man lang, mga bagay na sasabihin

Sinabi mo na sana

Pero sino ang umaasa nito, sino ang nakakaalam?

Ikaw

Ano na lang ang iisipin nila kung bigla akong nawala?

Kakaunti lamang

Hindi masaydong komportable, siguradong magugulat

Hindi masyadong magugulat

May luluha, sila’y maghahagulgol at aasa sa pagbalik ko

Konti. Hindi lahat, hindi tatagal

Mamimiss nila ako, magdadalamhati, magdurusa

Hindi marami

Ngunit hindi ko ito lubos-isipin

Hindi mo ‘to problema

Pero akala ko, kahit papaano, mahalaga ang lahat ng ito

Marami nang nagsabi niyan

Saan tayo tutungo, ano ang itsura ng pook?

Tapos ka na sa kape?

Hindi masyado, may pagkakaiba ba?

Pwede ako gagamit ng ibang baso

Tama, ako rin, sagutin mo ako, saan tayo dadako?

Hindi dapat sabihin

Ganon ba. Asahan mo na susunod lang ako

Malamang

Kung hindi pa ako handa, tanggihan ka at anuman..

Hindi ito pinagpipilian

Pag-usapan nga natin, may iba bang daan?

Ang tagal ng kape

Ibig kong sabihin wala bang daang tapatan, anuman..

Masyado kang nagbabasa

Pinaalala mo ako, perong kung..

Parati itong nangyayari

Ano?

Nagtatagpo at nagsisimulang magpalagay

Natural lamang ito, ang pagdating mo kasi ay biglaan

Hindi ko masyado naiintindihan

Ang ano?

Paano ang hindi mapigilan ay nakakagulat

Okey, sige na, tama ka, ano na ngayon?

Ano?

Alam mo na, inom nang inom lang ba tayo?

Akala ko lang na gusto mo ng kape…

-o-

This is an original post from my friendster blog.
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Fragility

3:33 PM

A delicate heart was once broken
It seems impossible for it to suffer another pain
But there a voice from deep inside of you echoes my heart
Calling out to make you realize Inspired by this new-fangled link
To all who feel no love appeal no more
But this wall around you is hard to break down
That’s aiding both our hearts to grow in sorrow
Forget what has been done, and we can dream tomorrow
Save our hearts for card and affection
It’s hard I know, but one thing for certain
Take care of this brittle heart of mine
A throbbing mind calls for of passion
I don’t think I could undergo another torment
But in you, I’ve found warmth
Affection I have never sensed before
What went before should not destroy what comes tomorrow
Don’t crash my innocent heart.
With all this fire that burns between us
Many things can be lost
But so much more to gain If I can choose the world I live in
A utopia I’d make would all revolve around you
Help me complete the game inside me
And help to mend my broken heart…

- o -

(Original post from my old FS blog)
 Credits to fal-name for the artwork .:unbreak my heart:.
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